lastgoodbye_x3

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 00:15:06 GMT

well i havnt written in here in a long time.
i dont remember where i left off, but i finished sophmore year
and i got through the summer. i had a boyfriend ian, for two months in the summer
pretty much the whole summer.. but i broke up with him, which was really pointless.
i was happy when we werent bitching at eachother,which wasnt alot.but i miss him, i do. but i need space, and time.hes going to college next year anyway, so i dont want to get too attached.ill always have feelings for him, no matter what. off the boyfriend subject.

i need to be happy. for now im going to just have fun, and do whoever i want. =P ahaha im a jokester.theres already like 3 boys lined up ahaha but im taking it slow, i dont want to get into anything fast.theres so many cute boys. but i dont think anyone is going to compare to ian right now. but its okay.

over the summer, i was thinking about the person i acttually knew i loved. and i thought and thought and thought about it until, i couldnt think anymore. ahahah but thats over with, and in the past, he will always been in my heart, but nothing more. too much time was being wasted on thinking about that boy, and wanting to be everything he wanted.

im back in school, started junior year.
its not too bad but i just started today.
this year better be fun! =]

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 16:18:27 GMT

last time i posted, it was about my cruise. theres been so much going on since than.

schools over tomorow? yeahh im gonna cry. whateverr.

todays ashlees birthday =] love her.

im with the cutest boy right now, and hes perfect<3

i have the bestfriends anyone could ask for, and my summer is going to be amazing

Fri, 04 May 2007 02:05:16 GMT

the cruise was amazing.
i met the cutest boy and the greatest friends.
i wanna go back.
enough said.

im so glad tomorow is friday
i cant wait to see ashlee and everyone
i miss them, and we are partying. hellyeah.

i miss my bestfriend.
hes pretty much everything.
and i havnt seen him in a month! what!

yo i also miss my sister alot.
sheesh. i need her. and i havnt seen her.
she got her braces off! pretty awesome. cant wait to see her.
idk when though? hm

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 02:36:33 GMT

so iv got alot to do tomorow.
ill be getting home around 4 becuase i have to go to mymoms work after school becuase people are looking at the house, BLAH. i have to finish my packing, clean my room, PAINT MY TOES, shower and straighten my hair, than at 6 im going my nails done and than i have dance after that. than around like 10 ill be at shawnas. we arent going to get any sleep tomorow. hahaha. we are so excited.=]

im going to miss everyone though. hahaha i live for the weekends with my friends, and im missing two of them. but i was told that they have computer on the ship, so ill probly be able to talk to people! =] and ill be texting people in florida and at the airport hahah.

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 23:56:40 GMT

i had the best spring break ever.
i have the most amazing friends.
over break, i met this really cool kid.
hes really quite the cutie too =]
and than we had off monday becuase of flooding. awesome.

2 more days until the cruise with shawna.
im so hyped, its unbeleiveble.
ill be gone till the 30th.
i want warm weather, its gonna be crazyy. =]

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 19:10:13 GMT

im pretty content with my life right now =]

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 16:26:38 GMT

things are okay lately, i guess.

WEEKEND.

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 22:17:56 GMT

friday hungout with vindawg. watched crash and some scar thing on mtv. crazyyy.left late that night. saturday woke up early and went to breakfast, some people were coming to look at the house.later went to station said hi to some people, than went to ralphs with mah boy donnnyy. than walked to seans. hungout there with some reallyy cool people. hahaaa. everyone was drunk, it was funnny.than got in the car with codyy and went to wendyyss. that was crazyyyy. mom picked me up and we went to my unclse house around 1130. had a good time. TODAY woke up early agian and went to breakfast with my mom and jim agian. came home and packed alottta stuff, i have like nothing in my room.we are getting closer to movinggg<3now im bored. i was supposed to go to vins, but the weather is supposed to be reallyy bad, so i didnt go. and its snowing. get off school tomorow? doubt it.

ohh p.s
hescute =]

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 22:44:44 GMT

just dont waste your night before it started
make sure im worth every single second

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 20:08:56 GMT

note: your really really dumb.

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 17:23:34 GMT

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together

iloveyou

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 02:36:31 GMT

school is gay.
got two detentions today
ne for not bringing in a paper signedand one for being late.
im surprised i dint get 3, since i called this kid an asshole. whatever.

after school went to vins house. good times,hes my bff.
than went to his hockey game. did the score board with his mom.
ahaha shes soo funnyy. i love herr.

GAH.im home.
the end.

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 02:47:44 GMT

fridayyyy- went to station. had fun! =]
got too see beckyy ashweee heatherr katieeenoon liz brianna<333
saw tara for like 2 minutess. i miss her and taylaaa.!
haha only me and harmonie eat goldfish off the ground
after i spilled them everywhere. ahahaha
steve came by to say hi. its always good seeing him
he dosnt come around much anymoree.
than he took me home we stopped at mcdonalds.
ahaha it was a fun car ride. hes a cool kid, missed him.

^ AHAHAHAHAHAHA. im so grosss.

saturday- sams surprise party! she was surprised it was cutee. =]
that night was fun. had some ups and downs but all together
it was an awesome time. stuck with jade most of the time. ahhaa.
i love sam. im so glad i was there<333

today- went to starbucks with becky, talked.
than stayed at my sisters allll day. gahh boring.

now im home.
and im just hanginout listening to music

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 20:19:58 GMT

so what makes you play this game
with results always the same
and nothing but bad reputations to gain
it speaks to me like all is fine
when i could cry
from all the bends and breaks that i
took this time
when happiness is based on lies
its so hard its too hard to tell the truth

today in bio. we got beakers of water and one was salt water.
we had to pick four people to "swap" water with.
than mr dilks put this stuff in our water, to see who had the
salt water, and the salt water represented "HIV"
lmao me and steve swapppedd..
than later in spanish i yelled " STEVE GAVE ME HIV" and he yelled
" ASHLEY GAVE ME HIV" bahahaha. and we I got in trouble.
so shes going to call home. LMFAO. i foudn it very funnyy.

weekend.

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 00:57:51 GMT

soo my weekend was okayy.
friday stayed at station for awhile.
than went to a partyy. it was alot of fun. =]
than me shannon and bec got a ride home from lou
and I GOT SHOT GUN bahaha and his friend sat in the back with the girls.
than we went to wendysss, and bec told me to slap some kids butt that i didnt
know. and i did. ahahah and than he tried tripping me. loser.
THAN i spilled my drink all over the counterr. i felt sooo dumb.
i wasnt completly myself. hahahaha. than slept at becs =]!

saturday my step mom had a demonstration at our house.
saturday night, went to station. hungout with people.
later steve and mike came. i havnt seen them in awhile.
so steve drove us to ashlees. HES A CRAZYYY DRIVER. lmaooo.
i was screaming like the whole way home, and they were laughing at me
than we parked outside ashlees house and he put the top down and me and ashlle
jumped in the car a few times, it was funnyyy. i missed them.

today me ashlee and bec went to the mall! =]
shopped, had a goood time.
than went to station and huungout with sean and frank.
later on stopped at ashlees house and mike mj and duffy were there.
i missed duffyyyyy!! and now im home. gahhh

boreddd.

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 02:54:55 GMT

all week were midterms,which means halfdays. yeahhh.=]
and today i had my last midterm and it was gym, it was dumb.
than after school i went to heights with cody sean and thomas.
than we hungout with some people. and ashwee cameee<3
stayed there for a while, drove around a few places. than my mom picked me up.
then went to saladworks with arielle danielle and dakota.that wasss reallyy fun =]
we were sooo loud in there and 5andbelow. ahaha good timees. than we had dance.
that wasnt too bad, its kindaaa confusing. lol but ill catch on.

today was a good day =]

cody is my bestfriend!!

CUASE IM A GANGSTA GANGSTA.212.
lmfao

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 17:12:40 GMT

One eye open; you never know
Someone could completely stop her pulse
She needs to know if there's somebody better
And she needs to know if that means someone else

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 03:47:38 GMT

And these cold winter nights, without you next to me
It feels like twenty below
Frostbite on my heart
This pain and suffering are
Feelings that you don't know

sunday was fun.
hungout with vin. watched his hockey game.
it snowed lastnight, pretty awesome.

today is monday. and i had a half day becuase of midterms.
i had bio and fashions today. ehhh,not the easiest.
i have halfdays all this week. GREAT =]
so after school i came home, ate, took a shower, than slept.
pretty much going to be an awesome week =]

im in good moods lately, i like it =]

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 15:44:36 GMT

woow. this whole weekend was sooooo dumb.
lastnight pissed me off, people grow up. please.

the only thing good about lastnight was i got to see
tara and taylaaaaaaa. =] i love dem hoes<3

its sunday.
ugh i hate sundaysss.

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 18:32:20 GMT

lastnight at station,was okay...
could have been alot bettter.
went to becketts.
walked to marias house with sam corrine maria dillion and beckkett.
ordered a pizza and the boys ended up "sleeping over" kinda... but we didnt relly sleep much.the boys left at 7am.me and maria went back to her house and slept for about 2 hours? until corrine and sam woke us up. aahaha.

i hope tonight is 10 times better than last night.
i was sick of everything lastnight, bad moood.

im not even going to worry about it
not worth it.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 19:49:12 GMT

dont hold your breath cuase youll only make things worse;

lastnight;vin came to the flyers game with me my dad my uncle and my cousin.
well the flyers lost, but it was alot of fun.yelling " MEH" all through the halls, and in the elevator. making fun of the kids behind us.ahahaahaha we have the best times together.glad he came with me.
hes my bestfriend. =]

today is friday!! =]
and im going to station fools.
tomorow DANCE PARTY WITH TARA AND TAYLAAA! <3

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 22:42:01 GMT

Times like these feel so dangerous,
When you know you're gonna find out,
how right it feels,
to ignore the ones you love the most,
This can't be right.

awesome weekend.<3
boringg week.
flyers game with vin tomorow.
should be fun.

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 01:46:32 GMT

myy weeekeeddd.

friday was funn. walked from hf to station with corrrineeee katiee noon/moody ahaha nicole and briannaaa. ahaha YEAH that was funnn. got there, there were some people there. than watched the fight, than me shannon corrine sam becky and alexis went to alexis' and had a sleep overrr! ahaha yessss. it was fun. me and alexis dressed up in the most randomest clothes we could find. OH and me alexis and sam slept in her little brothers dora the explorer tent. hell yes. AND we got tacosss ahahaha. the sleep over was alot of fun. lost a bestfriend? kinda sucks.

saturday my mom picked me up from alexis' and went home. i blaste my music and me and my mom talked and sang and things. it was cool. ahaha later went to vins hockey game, sat with his mom and mrs dimonte. ahaha that was a fun game. than after went out to dinner, we went to applebees.lol i love his parents. than later went back to vins house and watched the funniest movie everrrr! grandmas boy. WOOOW. we laughed alot. that whole night was fun.=]

than went to my sisters house. all hell broke loose. ahaha rather not talk about that.

SUNDAY. today. ugh. stayed at my sisters. =/ whatever.
than went to the mall. clothes<3

and now im home.
and i still feel like shit.
my head hurts and im soo hot.
mom wants me to go to the doctors.
its dumb. ill probly have to get blood taken agian? AH no

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 23:26:28 GMT

1. Talk to the boy/girl you like today?
dont really think i like anyone?

2. Realize anything new?
lifes not fair.

4. Miss someone?
nope not really.

--LAST PERSON WHO--
5. Slept in your bed?
meee

6. Saw you cry?
my mom and sister

7. You went to the movies with?
long time ago with some people

9. You said "I love you" to?
my sister<3

10. Made you laugh?
my sisters friend

12. Called you in the middle of the night?
not sure

13. Do you have a crush on someone?
nope.

--JUST PLAIN QUESTIONS--

14. What book are you reading now?
wow i completly forget what its called.

16. Worst feeling in the world?
cant explain

17. Piercing/tattoos?
earss

18. What are you most scared of right now?
im scared of the dark, but im constantly scared of getting hurt

19. Where do you want to get married?
the beach

20. Who do you really hate?
noone reallyy

21. Does anyone really hate you?
yeah probly

22. Do you like being around people?
yes

23. Have you ever cried?
of course

24. Are you lonely right now?
meh

25. Song stuck in your head right now?
nothing

26. Been on radio/tv?
nope

27. Ever liked someone but thought they wouldn't ever notice?
haha.

28. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
ahahahaa.

29. How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
one

30. What color shirt are you wearing now?
redish

31. Name three things that you do every day.
eat sleep talk

35. Who got you to join myspace?
isobel

39. What website(s) do you visit the most?
myspace and livejournal

40. Do you have plants in your room?
no

41. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
yeah

43. What's your favorite starbucks drink?
double chocolate chip frap.

44. Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex crush?
acttually, im a very jealous person, but theres obviously a reason hes an "ex" crush

45. Would you have a problem if your ex crush went after your friend?
agian^

2. Who knows a secret or two about you?
mostly taylor

3. Three words to explain why you last threw up?
alc o hol

4. Did you ever burn yourself?
accidentally

5. What's crazy to you?
...

6. Favorite cuss word:
"fuck"

7. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
hahahaha.i dont care

8. Who is your hero?
my mom and my sister<3

9. Would you ever want to be a model?
my mom and my sister want me to be, i think they are crazyy

10. Who is the most experimental person you know?
hm..

11. Do you tell white lies?
who doesnt?

12. When is your next party:
i have a sweet sixteeen to go to next weekend.

13. Who do you want to be with right now
noone

14. Is it better to give or get?
it would be selfish of me to say get

15. How do you handle a break up?
ugh

16. Your motivation for tomorrow?
not waking up. im so tired.

17. Last person to hurt you?
mehh

18. Last person to make you laugh:
my sisters friend

19. Last thing you ate:
im eating ice cream

20. Do you ever go a few days without changing your underwear?
ahahaha ewww.

21. Have you ever accidentally eaten an insect?
yeah probly

22. Do daddylonglegs freak you out?
mhm

23. Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
ew. no

24. Have you ever dropped food on the floor and eaten it?:
ahaha yes

25. Do you kiss your pets on the mouth?
nah

26. Would you ever have sex in a public bathroom?
hahaha no

27. What serial killer do you find most disturbing?
...

28. Do you ever talk to the TV?
all the time

29. Would you ever work in a retirement home?
no

30. Do you believe plants have feelings?
no

31.Do you laugh at people with "bowl" haircuts?
yes

32. Do you have nervous twitches?
lol no

33. Are you ever purposely irritating?
aahah sometimes

34. If you could fly, where would you go first?
thats a great question

36. Do you think Americans can do good British accents?
ahaha some

37. Do you have a strong accent?
no

38. How old are your pets?
no idea

39. Do you find rodents scary or cute?
EW.

40. Do you like Ozzy Osborne?
ahaha thats funny. i watched that for the first time in awhile lastnight

41. When was the last time you got lost?
ahaha i dont know

42. Do you like your current job?
i dont work.

43. Does anyone know your password to your myspace?
no

44. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonald's?
hm.. fries?

45. Are you an emotional person?
veryyy

46. Do you like your name?
no. everyone has it

47. Do you dance naked in your room at night?
ahaha no. i did yesterday thought, it was just me and my mom home.

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 04:59:44 GMT

so its almost 12:00 which would mean its almost friday.
im in alot of pain from dance, i havnt moved that much since the accident.
and im sick. i have more than a cold my mom says =/ i stayed home from school today, and mom says she wants me to stay home agiant omorow, so i can feel better to go out this weekend. my mom loves me<33

so im up. why am i awake?
yeah i cant sleep. nothing new. alot of thinking.

this will be a good weekend.
i hope im not sick anymore =[

i should be sleeping. resting.

lastgoodbye_x3

WEEKEND.

just dont waste your night before it startedmake sure im worth every single second

weekend.

One eye open; you never knowSomeone could completely stop her pulseShe needs to know if there's somebody betterAnd she needs to know if that means someone else

just dont waste your night before it started
make sure im worth every single second

One eye open; you never know
Someone could completely stop her pulse
She needs to know if there's somebody better
And she needs to know if that means someone else